Life and death
This week has been one of the craziest weeks of my life! It’s been both awesomely awesome, and horribly horrible! Good news, I move into my new apartment in August! Bad news, my best friends little brother died in a car accident on Tuesday, June 23, 2009 (RIP). So, I’ve been trying to be by her side as much as I can. He was her baby brother; only 17 years old. Barely graduating high school and had big hopes and dreams for his future. Today I went to the viewing to be with her and her family to say goodbye to him one last time before they barry him tomorrow afternoon. It was the saddest sight I have ever witnessed. A breathless body laying down in a casket. As I was trying to hold back the tears, I realized just how short life really is. Here was a lifeless 17 year old body who will now never be able to go to his prom, graduate from high school and go to college. And here I am complaining about how my own life sucks! And I think and realize… HOW does my life suck?! Just because things sometimes doesn’t go the way I planned or I don’t get what I want, doesn’t mean it’s “over”. Afterall, I AM still breathing. And that’s all the “best of life” anyone will ever need!
It saddens me that such a young soul had to be taken away like that. I am by far NOT a religious person at all, but I have my beliefs about death and why people die early. I always believed that life, everyones life, has a purpose. However, that purpose might not be fulfilled in this life. It might take many lives before the purpose is accomplished. And whenever someone dies, instead of cursing at god on why he took them so young, just think and know that their life’s purpose was complete. It can be something as big as stopping a world war, or as small as stalling someone for 2 seconds before a car hit them, or even as simpler as giving someone advice that could change their life forever. So when my best friend’s brother died, I thought to myself, even though he was young, his soul could of been hundreds, or even thousands of years old, before he finally completed what his soul was meant to do.
Today has taught me a new lesson: live, love and enjoy life! Don’t think about things too hard, don’t be afraid to let someone into your life, and go on that new adventure you always wanted!! Life is way too short for you not to do anything and everything you can ever do! I always think of what my life’s purpose is, and wonder why I can’t find and have someone who’ll love me as much as I would love them. But then again, maybe my life is supposed to be alone. To be able to live and do everything I ever wanted regardless of not being able to spend my life with someone. Yes, everyone deserves to eventually find someone to spend their life with, get married, have kids and grandkids, and grow old together. But maybe some people wont, or weren’t meant to. And just because right now I think that way, I won’t always live like that. I’ll still always be optimistic and keep my heart open to new people.
But anyway, point is; don’t be afraid to talk to that certain cutie you’ve had a crush on forever! Don’t chicken out on something you’ve always wanted to do like skydive or bungie jump! Don’t think or assume your life sucks or you wont ever find someone special, because it doesn’t and you will! Whenever you lose someone good, you always find a better! And the longer you wait, the better that special someone will be. Time is patience, and patience is an amazing ending!
